Submerge 2008

Submerge 08…will never be forgotten. That’s about all I can say. Sadly that is not a positive thing yet. (yet! That means I’m at least trying to be positive.) luggage: lost! Gone! No where to be found. With my new swim suit, new shorts, new shirt, skinnies, antique ring from my grandma, all my fav shoes, and my tye dye shirt that I made with leah. (insert: I later found out it was definitely stolen)

This is on top of no sleep in two days! A ten hour ride on a bus with j-high kids. Plus they asked me to switched rooms for the first evening to take care of crystal and kaycees room (so they could work on service stuff). (the girls ended up being awesome! just tough cause i had never met a single one of them)

And my stomach is all messed up. And I’m dying to cry my eyes out but there is NO privacy here at all.

I borrowed EVERYTHING I could. Including a phone charger to charge my “dead all day” phone. I couldn’t call my dad- unless I text from jenn’s. (which that was helpful).

All of my friends- and even people I don’t know have offered to help me and let me borrow their stuff. So sweet.

I’m just really over exhausted. I want to boo hoo! Like my eyes out. But I can’t find anywhere to go.

I really thought this was gonna be the best time of the year. (or one of the best times at least.)

I guess it’s my job to make it that way.

I’m so just over over over drawn with emotions and stress. On top of all the decisions that have been weighing on me for months!

I prayed for the rapture to happen but it didn’t. I didn’t truly think suicidal but I was close with wishing the truck would speed up and kill me as I crossed the road.

Ok so death is a bit much- but I wanted to go home so so so bad!!!!

Jesus- help me!!

Well, I did live through that night. And upon my awakening the next morning, (with emotional stress relieved) I made the decision to NOT be down about this stupid luggage junk. It was a new day and I was ready to embrace it. (my things will end up burning anyway!)

So Saturday was pretty good. Got connected with my girls. Borrowed some clothes. My friends were so amazing! Candace, taylor, ashlyn, karina, TELIA (GAVE me her skinnys, a brand new shirt plus an UNDER SHIRT- she thought about my layer obsession! And her fav scarf! And told me to keep it all!)

However, the best was yet to come…Sunday after service, we did the whole “one more song” thing. Which turned into a 5 HOUR Holy Ghost face-melting party! I don’t know how to even begin to express what was going on in that room. It was purely Heaven on earth. God’s presence was almost literally tangible. I was sobbing like I’ve never sobbed before. I just got to this point where I was in a state of uncontrollable awe of Him- His holiness. And I began to ask again (like I wondered in LA) why is it that I am the one here experiencing and dwelling in His presence like this. Why? I’ve done absolutely nothing to earn this. I just was basically born into it. Why oh why?! High grace. High grace. That’s the phrase that was instilled in me at that moment. I’ve been given so much. I must live to the full capacity of the calling He has placed on me- and give Him every ounce of glory- never confusing His power with my efforts.

We were all crying out in our prayer language that day. At one point Tyler spoke out- and interpreted. He said that God was telling us that His presence is here. Breathe deep of it. Challenges are ahead for everyone in that room- big ones. But that God is here with us. Breathe deep of this presence here.

Then another pastor said that he truly just heard God say that Heaven is here. What we are experiencing is HEAVEN! God’s ears are open to us. Whatever prayers we need to ask- do so now! For God’s ears are listening intently.

Then Jason got up and said that he really felt like each person in that room was being marked -to do great things. “nations and generations” were called in that room. We are FOREVER marked now.

That was hiya! (Hebrew…Tweezy thing. :)

After that Becca Monsour and I went to the beach to do some quiet time. Reading our Bibles and journaling about what had just happened. (Psalm 139!!!!)

We felt so stoned after that!!

Then that night Tweeze spoke on healing and how the Bible says to confess your sins to God for forgiveness, but in James it says to confess your sins to one another for healing!

So he told the students to confess to God first, then to find a leader they trusted to confess to them also, so they can be free and healed!


I got to speak with 3 awesome girls. I was so honored that God allowed me to speak into their lives at such a huge moment. It was amazing. I never realized how hard it is though to find the right things to say. But I kept asking the Holy Spirit to give me the words to say- and I believe He did.

Also, Lauren Song prayed over me that night- and God truly used her to pin point and confirm EVERYTHING that has been going on in my life. It was so amazing.

So that was my camp experience in a nutshell. I got close to so many people. And have an even greater love for my friends.

Oh I got to BAPTIZE Andye in the pool. We had canceled baptism cause of the rain and lightning. But one girl just wanted to get baptized so badly-she couldn’t wait. So Candace and Blake were like “Tori, go for it.” So I did! So crazy! But what an honor!! Then Heather missed it. So she made me do it again!! Haha. So I baptized someone twice! Hahahahaha!!!


Since getting home, this week has been NUTSO!!
Back to work!
Jd had his appendix taken out.
Rhett and Rhodes have pink eye and double ear infections!


I FLIPPIN GOT A LETTER FROM LEAH WITH A BLADE OF GRASS FROM TANZANIA IN IT!!! AND I FLIPPIN GOT A TEXT FROM HER TOO!!!!!! WAHHHHHHEEEEEEAAAAHHHHEEEEAAHHH!!!!!!

Tomorrow is the deadline to decide whether I’m going to do full time or part time HPSOM. OH DEAR!!!

Also, I drove to Counter Culture! High five! With Taylor, Morgan, and Alex in the car. “Most nervous driver” award goes to me. They helped me back out and switch lanes indeed. J

SO much more to talk about! Jarred Louise is here for a few days!!!!! YIPEEEEE!!
So glad to see him!

That’s about all I have time for now. God’s teaching me so much.

Big lessons I’m trying to learn:
-grow
-be teachable
-it’s who you are not what you do. Be who you need to be! Quit focusing on what!
-just be a sweet kid. Sweet spirit
-slow to speak
-gentle spirit
-depend on God in every moment
-humility
-glorify Him in everything
-pray without ceasing
-simplicity. Just worship Him. That’s all.
-you fight His battles- He’ll fight yours.

So yeah,
Love you guys.

-Tori Oh